Today I have gone through a range of emotions. When something didn’t go through the way I had hoped, I became angry. My anger relating to finances and the material world seemed to rage. And as we all know, anger is usually a symptom of fear. I spent sometime with my mother in law today who has lived a pretty dramatic life. Being with her put some things into perspective. But the work I need to do internally is constant. I’m not there yet. The first step to healing is admitting there is a problem. I’ve taken the first step, but now what? Feeling at a loss, I pulled the stone representing Obsession. It is the Egyptian hieroglyph for the God Set.

In the Isis Oracle, Set represents, dis-integration, jealously, anger, greed, addiction and materialism. He was the brother of Osiris and Isis. The God of the red desert, disorder and violence. Set was jealous of Isis and Osiris and hated them for all they had and what he lacked. This prompted him to kill Osiris in order to become king.

Today is about recognizing those aspects within ourselves. How are we handling a situation? Are we approaching life with fear? If so, we will be dealing with these strong emotions. Chaotic emotions lead to disorder and confusion, anger and sometimes violence.  Recognize the Devil within yourself. Do not judge it, but look for the source. Find the source and begin to work through the release. Begin to put things in perspective. You may find that your fears are baseless. You may be carrying a fear from long ago that no longer applies to your situation today. How might  you be acting in a way that is no longer relevant? In fact are you acting? or re-acting? There is a big difference. Remember what you do or say in this state of mind can never be taken back. Maybe it’s time to allow for the dis-integration. Allow it to fall apart a little so that you can rebuild using only those pieces that will move you forward, letting go of the pieces that hold you back. Set did not reign forever. Horus, the son of Isis and Osiris avenged his father’s death and took the throne. It will take sacrifice to gain the wisdom needed to reunite “Egypt” and rule peacefully over your land.  Time to move from the red desert. Step back and broaden your perspective. Be aware of those who love you, who are around you and who will help you. There is a big, beautiful world out there. Enough for you, enough for all. You do not lack. Do not be afraid.

It’s been almost a year since my Mother-in-Law and I began the journey of translating recipes from a nearly century old cookbook. Every Wednesday we get together to  talk about the food, the culture and her memories of growing up in Indonesia during World War II. I can go over there feeling heavy with the weight of the world and I come away with a new and good perspective on life. She has survived things I cannot imagine. She reminds me that life is full of heartache and fear but it is also filled with beauty and regrets are only chances not taken. Hers is an amazing story and I have great respect for the woman she is. I am looking forward to the compilation of recipes, stories and wisdom. It’s a project of the heart.

I’m suffering from a creative block. Perhaps “block” is not quite the right word. I have many creative thoughts and ideas, too many. I feel the pressure of how do I do this? How do I finish them all? How do I finish what I’ve already started? Where do I start? are they good enough? So not “blocked”, but the result is the same, I am overwhelmed and it is stopping the flow.

I decided to pull a card. I recognize it right away. The 8 of Coins, but in the reverse position. Well duh.

Sometimes this card denotes a lack of ambition. But that isn’t the case today. Today it’s about too much ambition, too much perfectionism, too much worry. You may find those creative juices just aren’t flowing today due to ill health, stress or unbalanced emotions. Creation can’t be forced, just like babies who are born when they are good and ready; not when you are. The creative force has a mind of it’s own and you need to be in a position that is ready to accept it in order for it to flow through you. If you are not healthy or under undue stress, it will most likely wait until another day before it will come to you. Accept that for today you will need to chose another avenue of expression. Or take that much needed nap and try again later. Be kind to yourself and allow yourself some time to breath. If you clog yourself with judgement and expectations you won’t accomplish anything but frustration. Accept where you are in this exact moment. Accept that things happen in their own time and in their own way. Step away from the project, take a walk, breathe fresh air, finish your laundry. Tomorrow is another day.

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I had forgotten about this poster. Bethalynn made this up for me sometime ago. Strangely, I now don’t even remember why. But is serves as a good reminder. Today I’ve had some disappointments and it makes it easy for me to get distracted or get down about things. But then I get this and it helps me remember what I’m doing and why. It helps me press on regardless and do those things I need to do. I have to trust that if I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing, everything else will fall into place.  These are some of the concept sketches for my Goddess Oracle. I am currently working on The Goddess Bridget. I haven’t gotten too far with her painting and I need to return to Her and finish what I’ve started. Those lessons have come up for me today, number one, have faith, believe and trust. Two, if something has died, bury it. And now three: finish what you’ve started.  A lot of our successes in life come from simply finishing what we’ve started. I love these goddesses and I love the system I’ve developed for the oracle. They need to come into this world. I need to finish. They’ll take it from there.

Me: Oh hey, nice of you to join me in the shower. (not really)

Beetle: *looks annoyed*

Me: So, what’s up?

Beetle: You’ve had a lot of death lately. It’s starting to rot. Hanging on to dead stuff stinks up your life.  Don’t make me come and take care of it. I eat that shit you know. Better you take care of it rather than me.

Me: Yes, you’re right. Thanks.

Art: “The Tower” by Bethalynne Bajema

A wonderful afternoon and evening for our Goddess Talk. Thank you all for sharing your stories, your families and your food. Love you!

A good start to my morning. My coffee and ibuprofen has kicked in and I’m getting ready to start my day! So many thoughts and ideas in my head with the energy and determination to see them played out.  And as I love this IsidoreTarot Deck, I knew I just had to pull my card for the day to see which way the energy was flowing.

I drew the Ace of Wands. This card is about new beginnings, inspiration, potential. Notice the subtle red tones, the wands represent fire and passion. Just one wand means it is singularly focused and strong. Its that ball of energy that begins to grow as the mind begins to conjure. It’s important to nurture this energy. Get it clean and strong.

I think of it as I would when I cast a spell. Build and layer the energy. Start with the big picture then focus and narrow. Be specific. Be concise. Once it’s built, brick by brick, take your time and pull back out to see the creation in it’s whole. Your creation. Feel that energy, know that it is real. Then with great power, push it out into the world and release it.

Just like the picture on the card, hold the wand focused and straight, then let it radiate out and know that what you dream will manifest.

Part of my plan today is to do something in the mundane that will parallel what I am doing magically. For me, today, that is weeding. I’m going out to pull weeds and discard what is chaotic and confusing. Then focus on what I want to grow. I’m going to nourish that, fertilize that, then do the same in other aspects of my life. Later this evening, I will sit on my (soon to be) freshly cleaned porch and observe the moon. The moon is waxing crescent right now. The perfect time to build and grow your ideas and projects. By full moon time, they should be ready to send out and made manifest.  Be present to the energies and parallels in your everyday life. This is part of the “layering” and building, the focusing of intent. It’s what is necessary to bring your new beginning to a successful ending.

Go “Ace of Wands”, Go! I think I’m liking this card for today.

I’m looking forward to this Sunday.  Every couple of Sundays, I highlight one of the Goddesses from my upcoming oracle deck. This week is Santa Muerte. This week is all about death. I’ve experienced a lot of endings this week. Some are easier to accept than others. Somethings I’ve noticed need to end and I’m having trouble letting go. Maybe this Sunday we’ll get some help with that. Either way, it’s gonna be interesting!   https://www.facebook.com/events/523316267795982/