I was feeling rather low this morning and I thought about how I haven’t pulled a card for awhile. Maybe today I should. Well, pulling just one wouldn’t do. Yeah, that kind of day. So I pulled 3. The first one to come up, or rather “jump out” at me, as it flew up in my face while I shuffled, was the Strength card. I wanted to scream. It was like being a kid again, waiting for the birthday party to start and someone tells me to be patient because the cake isn’t done baking. You know what I mean? Strength. Yeah. Right.

This card isn’t about brute strength or muscle. It’s about quiet inner strength and perseverance. Some days are more difficult than others to persevere. Some days, I’ve so got that whole perseverance thing down. Nothing can stop me. Then there are days, like today when I don’t wanna! I’d much rather crawl back into bed and have someone take care of me. I’d rather that someone acknowledge that I work my ass off and tell me that I can take a break today. But reality doesn’t work like that. No one really cares. You get up, buck up and continue on. You do what it takes and realize that feeling sorry for yourself only takes up that little amount of energy you have left and you’d better put that to something that counts instead. (Okay, maybe I will, and maybe I’ll still pout, just a little, while doing it, cause I can. So there! Take THAT Strength Card!)

Magician came up next….Alright, so I’ve realized that I need to persevere, now what? Now I take what I’ve got, use everything around me, every trick left in my bag to make something happen. It’s time to get creative. I’m an artist, I consider myself to be a creative person, so when I pull the magician card I begin to think that I need to push that side of me a little more. I’m getting lazy somewhere in the creative department. Maybe pulling a trick out of my tried and true, (read over-used and worn), bag isn’t going to do it this time. This time, I’ve got to dig a whole lot deeper, play the game a whole lot smarter. The magician is rather about manipulation. I don’t think of that in negative terms here. It is more like I need to manipulate, as in shape and create some aspect of my life, or project. It’s time to pull the pieces together and create, manifest something. But it isn’t the thing I’m used to doing, its something new. Which makes it tougher to envision and aim for. I think the main point is to recognize, accept and begin. As I begin, hopefully it will take shape and I will begin to understand. This will be….You know, I was going to say a matter of faith, but that’s not quite right. It feels more like science.  Maybe I don’t need to understand the equation to understand the concept. But as long as I’m working within that, and trust, it will happen. Whatever ‘IT’ is.

My outcome? Judgment. A new day? a new beginning? The horn is being blown announcing the arrival of something, or maybe it’s like my alarm clock, waking me up to something. It seems that this is good. From all of this, something new comes.  I’m going with the theory that new is better, (because I can.) Because not everything that I have, or everything that I am doing right now is working. Now is the time to bury the truly dead crap and resurrect, or birth only that which will move me forward. So it looks as if the Magician in me has some work to do. And if he works hand in hand with Strength, together they will accomplish it.

Next time I do a reading I want the cards that say, “Don’t worry about it! Everything you wished for is going to happen today and you don’t have to lift a finger, just go back to bed.” I wonder which deck has those cards in it? I need to buy it.

The beautiful (and brutally honest) Isidore Tarot Deck that I use can be found HERE.